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All caked out

So my mom turned 60 on Thursday. My niece turned 6. I made pancakes from scratch and some sausage for her to share with all of her friends. I had 60 balloons in her office and decorated it with streamers and little saying about getting older. Some were sweet and some were not so much. ;) She was NOT happy about those. She had gotten kind of down about turning 60 and I wanted to help make her day a little brighter.

Friday I got in a picture order. I ALWAYS love when that happens. I know it's silly, but I love seeing my work in print. Today I spent time with my middle niece Courtney. She is hilarious! We baked the cakes for Bree's party tomorrow and she did a great job! She isn't really a cake person as she informed me today, but after licking the bowl of all three cakes, she ended up being a cake person.

She informed me that she was depressed right now. I tried to hold back my chuckle but it just sounded so growny. Then she continued to tell me why she was depressed. "There was a dog and it was pitiful at Granny's and it was gaining weight and then she was pregnant and then a car hit her and she died." I was sad for the dog of course, but was releived that it wasn't anything serious as far as Courtney was concerned.

A little while passed and out of the blue she said,"Do you like Dora the Explorer?"
I said, "Yeah, I guess."
She said, "I don't. I think she has a big head. It is way bigger than ours. Why does she have a big head?"

Then she said, "You can dress up like Dog The Bounty Hunter. I would, but it's more for adults." I told her that I wans't dressing up for halloween. We then started talking about him getting arressted and she could not beleive it. I had to tell her everything exactly and even had to show her where I got the information.

All of my nieces are so adorable when they talk. They just amaze me at the things they say. I keep saying that I am going to start a page in each of their scrapbooks so that I can jot down all the cute stuff they say. I have yet to do and it of course I have forgotten it all. :(

So I make the hamburger cake and get ready to start decorating it. Bree calls to tell me that she wanted eyes on it. then she tells me War Eagle and says, "Can you do an Auburn cake?" WHAT?!?!?!?! I told her I coudl, but I had already started on the burger, would it be ok and she said it would. Whew! Now it is time for a bath. I am covered with sugar from head to toe and I am already sweet enough. Night.

Sleepy head

I finally was able to go to sleep around 4:30 this morning. This junk sucks. I have no clue what to do about it. The night before I went to bed early, btu I laid there a long time. Then I was up by 8:00. I just knew I was going to be able to sleep last night. Nope! So anyway, I had a Junior Service League meeting last night. I had to skip it though. I'm still sickly. My voice now sounds like a man. lol Robert came in from work on Monday and said, "How you feeling?" I said, "Fine." Then he said,"I hate to say it, but you look horrible." I laughed. He said, "Really, you do." So how is that for kicking you while you're down? lol I had decided to go to my meeting regardless last night, then when I started getting ready I looked in the mirror and all decisions become null and void. I looked like death. hehe Not really, but I did look pretty ugly. So I thought my coughing and sniffing we about gone, unfortunately they're not. My mom's birthday is tomorrow, as well as my youngest niece. We were going to have my mom a party, but she said she didn't want people to know how old she was going to be. So now we have no plans really. She wants us all to go out to dinner together, so I guess we will have to plan on that one day. Bree's party is Sunday. She has placed and order for a hamburger cake. It will be cute. It is one of my favorites to do.

Let's see, what else? Oh yes, photography business is looking good for next week. I have 3 shoots. Oner family, one team and one preschool. That should be interesting. I have to get started on the background setting for the preschool. Team pics will be simple and the family session will be on the rocks at the creek. Those are always fun. Now, ask me about the preschoolers next week. There will be 37 of them!!! Oh why do I get myself into these things? hehe Of course I am kidding. I LOVE it!

So, now I just need to get pics of my niece Courtney, and my niece file will be complete. She has a hard time fitting me in. When I asked her last when she wanted to do them, her reply was, "How about Labor Day?" Umm, the child is 7 what does she know about Labor Day!?!?!?!?! Unfortunately, I was out of town on Labor Day, so we had to put it off. Maybe we should plan on it for next week. If she can pencil me in. I just love my growny girls. [IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v223/luv2crop/photobar.jpg[/IMG]

I guess I should get off of here for now. I need a bath extremly bad, so I guess I better start my water. Then I have to get some things ready for the post office. I guess that's it for now. Talk to you all later.

Countdown...

10 Things I Wanna Do Before I Die
1. Visit all 50 states
2. Wear a size 10
3. Get all the schooling I can
4. Have a successful photography business
5. Go to Europe
6. Learn to make biscuits
7. Learn to Can
8. Tell my family how much they mean to me
9. See my grandnieces
10. Have a white Christmas

9 Places I Last Spent Money
1. Online paying bills
2. Telephone company
3. Exxon (fuel)
4. Spectrum (milk)
5. Race Trac (fuel)
6. Walmart (groceries)
7. Starbucks at the Airport (Strawberries and Cream Frap)
8. ProLabs (client photo order)
9. Farmers and Merchants Bank (Cassi's school tuition)

8 Sounds I Routinely Hear Around My House
1. Computer keyboard
2. Braves game
3. Cassi singing
4. Sounds from the x-box (usually a car race)
5. Ringing phone
6. Pecans hitting out tin roof and rolling onto the porch
7. Chickens from the neighbor
8. The fan

7 Real Restaurants Where I Last Ate Out (Sonic doesn't count! lol)
1. Applebee's in Dothan
2. Cracker Barrell in Newnan
3. Replay's in Mississippi (had a Philly Cheese Steak)
4. Replay's in Mississippi (had a delicious Reuben, Yummm)
5. The Market Buffet in Mississippi
6. IHOP on the way to the airpot
7. Jon Boy's after a ball game

6 Things I Scratched Off My To-Do List Recently
1. Finished a proposal for a daycare shoot
2. Started a RAK box for unneed scrapbooking items
3. Got my hair cut
4. Embroidered a towel for Cassi's football player
5. Burned all photos to disc
6. Set out ant poison

5 People I Don't Know who I'd Like to Hang Out With
1. Some of my SS friends (but I guess I do "know" them)
2. My ancestors
3. Max Lucado (Christian Author)
4. Scott Kelby (Photo Shop guru)
5. Dr. Seuss

4 Songs That Make Me Happy
1. What a Wonderful World
2. Zippety Do Dah
3. Calvary's the Reason Why or Jump, Jump, Jump
4. Buttermilk Biscuits

3 Things I Hate To Do
1. Take medicine
2. Put away laundry
3. Put gas in my car

2 Things I'm Really Good At
1. Photography
2. Organizing

1 Really Bad Habit
1. Trying to do it all

Oh no she has a camera... again!!!

If you don't know why I do what I do, maybe this will help you understand why in some way I am always into something that involves photos.

I take pictures because I love to capture life as we know it now. It has not and will not always be the same. Things change, people change, places change-life happens. It is so important that we focus on capturing each and every moment that is so precious to us. I have a lot of photos that I don't consider good quality show photos, for instance one of my sister and brother playing fetch with dinner rolls or my nieces rolling around in paper in the yard and even the much dreaded family picture on the holidays where the fake smiles can't hide the true feelings of why does she always insist on taking this stupid picture and why does she never remember the tripod. Will I win a large prize for those photos, not likely. Will I be published in a showcase album? I doubt it. Will I be famous for it... absolutely not!
I keep those photos because they show my life! They show who I am and who makes me who I am and the people in my life who make me want to be a better person. Just because you might not think my photos are prize worthy, doesn't mean my photos aren't priceless. I revisit those photos time and again almost weekly. It is that time that I love because it instantly takes me back to that moment where everything else kept moving except what I captured on film. It takes me back to the happiness that is felt with I am with my siblings that no one else can compete with or compare to. It helps me relieve the days of my babies being babies, only to flip a few pages and see they are not babies anymore. It helps me see the love of a grandmother with her grandchildren and I realize how awesome and strong that love is and nothing in this world can ever match that depth. I am reminded of my family who has gone before me and I still remember their smile and their laughter, not because I have a photgraphic mind, but because I have photos to refresh my memory. I do what I do because one day my memory will be gone and all those photos will be erased from my mind, but I will be able to remember with the photos. I do what I do as a tribute to each person in my albums, so that when they are no longer a part of this world, their legacy will be.

Musings from a friend

With so many people using today to reflect back on a very tragic time in our history, I decided to share with you all a piece that my SS friend wrote. She has truely described why family is so important and why my pictures and scrapbooks are so important to me. Excerts from her post are listed in quotes below.

"Where were you on September 11th 2001? On 9/11 I had a Creative Memories business that was 14 days new. I hadn’t even taught my first Home Class, as our presentation was called back then. The world had stopped still in the wake of this awful tragedy. I stopped still. I kept my eyes on the news day and night. Days after the tragedy, people were walking aimlessly around ground zero and there was a common thread. Pictures. People held up pictures of their husbands, wives, fathers, mothers, sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, friends, coworkers. They were looking for their loved one. Holding pictures up to the news cameras in hopes that someone in the audience had seen the person in the picture and that somehow they might be reunited. They grasped onto those pictures as if the picture was the individual themselves. Pictures. People tearfully holding up pictures pleading to the camera “Have you seen this person?” Weeks later, the pictures turned from a tool to help locate someone into a way to memorialize that same person. Pictures were left with flowers and messages at ground zero. It occurred to me that becoming a Creative Memories Consultant, a mere 14 days earlier, was important. Pictures are important. The stories behind the pictures are just as important.

I was already a “scrapbooker” with cute pages of my little boy, just 15 months old. I created fun pages of me and my husband in the early years of our marriage. Suddenly, those pages were so much more valuable and as I would create future pages, I’d always be thinking that these albums will be here long after I’m gone. I prayed that I would be around to enjoy the moments with my family a long time from now, but if something should happen to me, that I’ve shared my feelings in my albums. They’d know how important they were to me. They’d have an idea of who I was as a person, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend. They would know who I loved and why I loved them so much. I had hoped that the families of the victims of 9/11 had such a treasure of their loved one, either created by the loved one or about the loved one.

When I started my business on August 27, 2001, I thought it will be fun and cute to teach people to make albums and I could make a little money doing something I already enjoyed. After September 11, 2001, I thought differently. I KNEW then that people and families NEED these albums and my resolve grew. They always needed these albums, just as my family needs these albums, but 9/11 changed my whole perspective. My business had an amazing purpose. Suddenly, I “got” the Creative Memories Mission. To preserve the past, enrich the present and inspire hope for the future. I get it! I pray that the hundreds of albums that have been created as a result of my sharing Creative Memories with others will not be valued as the result of a tragedy. I can rest in the knowledge that when the people I’ve helped create albums’ time on earth has come to a close, for whatever reason, that they’ve left a story behind. Maybe not the whole story. Maybe just a glimpse. Maybe it was a love story about their husband. Maybe it was a love story about their children. Maybe it was a story about themselves. Whatever it is, Creative Memories has helped me impact lives for the better and I am so grateful for that.


If you know me as a friend, a family member, one of my Creative Memories customers, one of my Creative Memories team members, I wanted to share this with you. This is where I am coming from when I offer to help you make albums. This is where I am coming from when I’ve invited you to my house to work on your albums. This is where I am coming from when I encourage you as a Consultant to keep helping others to create albums. This is where I am coming from when you look at me funny when I tell you I was up all night scrapbooking. I love what I do as a scrapbooker and as a Consultant. I just wanted to give you a little insight as to where some of that passion and resolve comes from."

Late night pains

It's almost 1 in the morning. My back hurts, my finger hurts, my head hurts and I'm having hunger pains. lol Enough whining? Ok, seriously though... I had a flatbread pizza for dinner tonight and it was delish, but now I am hungry. I want some fruit. Some really cold fruit. A nice big juciy pear or peach would be GREAT! Summer is almost over and I haven't even had either of them. Pineapple would be good too. Of course had I had this feeling an hour ago, I could have went to the store, but our little ghetto town store closes at 12. Atleast they stay open until midnight. So, I have been reading all of my friends myspace pages. I'm just trying to catch up on them. I have taken all meds, but can't sleep. I didn't take Ambien though
(sorry Jen) because I am still on the pain meds from my fall. They are suppoosed to make me sleepy, which they do, but unfortunately it is like a dang 15 hour delayed reaction!!! Talk about extended release! So I figured I would come here to blog because no one is on any of my boards that I frequent. I don't want to get out of bed, because I would probably end up grabbing a full of sugar popsicle and that would not be good. Yummy but not good for me.

I really need to get off of here and MAKE myself close my eyes and atleast pretend to be a sleep. Maybe I can trick my body. lol I want to get back in my routine again since school has started, but I have just been so tired. When I walked into church this morning the first thing someone said was, "You are looking pale today." The next person I saw said, "Well She'Na, you just look so tired and just worn out." Then they proceeded to show me what they meant. lol I really need to get my levels checked again and I have to make myself do that. My finger isn't improving as fast I had hoped. I stopped wearing the splint because I had hoped it might help me get the full use back soon if it weren't so stablized. Unfortunately I think this has caused more pain than progress. I am going to give it to Friday and then if it is not ANY better, then I will go see another dr about it that is not an ER doc. I'm not asking for a miraculous recovery overnight, but the pain still seems to be so strong, especially if I hit it on something. Even a pillow or something soft hurts it. The swelling has gone down a good bit and it is not purple like it was. It still looks crooked to me though and that is what I was trying to prevent by going to the ER in the first place. Ok, I'm rambling on and on about stupid stuff so I am going to get off of the puter for now. I will be back tomorrow maybe as a reward for getting my rotations done. lol
Night.... well good morning!

Advice Overload

Have you ever been encouraged so much that it becomes discouraging? I have a friend who is very burdened right now and frankly it has caused lots of people in her life to share her burden. No that is not a bad thing, in fact she needed encouragment and always got it. Well this time, she didn't ask for advice on the past situations or the big picture... but that is what everyone responded with. I think we gave her advice overload. Everyone had advice and it was all good advice, but... I think it was taken more as an attack than encouragement. So many times that is the case.

I know I am talking in circles, but I just hate that my friend has lost the only support group that I think she had... all because we gave advice that wasn't asked for. It is always better to give than to receive, but hindsight is 20/20. If she happens to read this, I am sorry that you have made the decision you have and hope that you know that noone was being intentionally offensive, even though it may have appeared that way.

My heart just aches for this family on so many levels. I don't they could ever know the measure of the love that is given in each piece of advice... it was meant to help, but not hurt. Although, I think we did more damage than we did good. Maybe it will all work out in the end.

As I close for now, at the risk of sounding like Wilson from Home Improvement, I am reminded of two quotes regarding advice:
1)In giving advice seek to help, not to please, your friend. ~Solon

2)Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

A little late...

I said I would blog from Mississippi, but I didn't. I have a broken finger so I hadn't been able to type too much to blog either. Ok, so what shall I blog about. Here are a few things that happened this week.

I took my first flight. It was awesome! I have been looking for cheap flights ever since. I always love clouds, sunsets, etc... but the beauty of seeing them up close and personal is more than anyone can imagine. It was beautiful. I wanted to jump out of the plane and play in the clouds. It looked so soft, just like a huge blanket of snow. Of course we saw some "Alabama Snow" in those clouds, you know the kind that looks dirty because there isn't enough to cover the ground. To be above the clouds and see different layers of the atmospher is breathtaking. I had tears filling my eyes because it was so amazing.

Another thing that happened this week is our Alabama attorney sent a letter to our "neighbor" to have him move his fence. We shall see if he moves it. I wonder how ugly he will get in the process.

We went to Florida Wednesday for depositions and actually made some progress with the case. That was awesome, especially since we have NEVER made that much progress... even with court and mediation. We didn't even go for progress, but we did make it and even hae positive communication. So we finallly have contact with Joenesia. She is now 11 years old and is 5'1". She is going to be tall like her Daddy. We also had a few pics sent to us via email that night. It was great to be able to hear from her and actually get to talk to her. She loves math and science, so that is great. Hopefully we will see her in person soon.

I took Casey to get her learner's permit, the computers were down.... AGAIN!!!! I saw my cousin Brandy though and was able to visit with her a bit there and I also John Wellborn and was glad to be able to catch up with him some as well. So I guess it wasn't a totally wasted day.

Today there was a Sons of Thunder Motorcycle Ministry meeting. We kept our new pastors kids. We were so honored to have them stay with us while Pastor Rob and Amy went to the meeting. Robbie also went to the meeting and he really enjoyed it. We had so much fun with Lauren and Parker. Lauren is potty training and did a SUPER great job! She is sooo funny.

Robbie finally got his bike running again. Now we have to get insurance, a new helmet, a battery and a new tire. lol Let's see... Oh I have a photo shoot next Saturday at 7:30. I'm really excited about that. I got to talk to my Courtney bug on the phone today. I have not seen her in forever it seems. She signed up for soccer and seems excited about it. Now I just need to call Brook and Bree and I will have my much needed dose of nieces. Cassi made some toffee brickl bar cookies today. They are yummy. They have Heath toffee bits in them. She is turning into a great cook. She loves to bake things, especially cookies. I bought her a cookie book that is nothing but cookies. It looks good, but we haven't tried any recipes yet.

I have GOT to clean up that hobby room this week. I started going through stuff last week before the trip and man it is just horrible!!! Of course Robbie took the Steinbrooks on a tour.. yikes!!! Oh well maybe they won't hold our forest level grass, disasterous hobby room and moss covered porch against us. lol Can you tell we are behind on our home maintence??? Oh and our pool is now a lovely shade of green. I said I wasn't going to let it get dirty this year and just keep it clean so we could use it asap next season, but I digress. Sigh....

Oh, one more thing before I go all requests for more posts after I take my crazy meds are null and void. It's not gonna happen!!! hehe Ok going now. I have to get ready for church tomorrow and grab a snack. For some reason I am hungry. See ya!!

Packing my bags...

Tomorrow I leave for Mississippi. I am totally stressing about the whole security measures and checking bags, etc... I am so afraid that I am going to break a rule or something. I guess the next time I blog will be from Mississippi, and I also plan to catch up on my scrapbook journaling and maybe even work on a few pages. Anyway, I will try and catch up with everyone later. I have been just trying to heal from my fall and my meds make me sleepy. Ok, going to finish packing and then go to bed. I wish my whole family was going though. It would be so fun to ahve my brother and my sister with me too. Anyway, I love you all very much! See you later!

Today was NOT my day

but tomorrow is a new day and today will be over and I will have survived. I didn't go to sleep until 5 this morning, then I woke up at 7, finally rolled out of bed around 8 and bebopped down the steps to the great room and well, I can't walk obviously because my foot slipped and I fell and landed on my finger and bottom. (what a run on sentence!!)It hurt. I went to the er around 2 and got shot and 3 scripts. I should be able to sleep tonight because all the bottles say will cause drowsiness. Anyway, I have a busy day tomorrow, as well as Saturday, but really need to clean house most of all and will probably just chill out since the dr said I will hurt worse tomorrow. Thanks for the positive thinking doc.

So I am lying in bed and looking so forward to the chiropractor visit tomorrow. I can't wait!! When I landed today my first thought was, "Well at least I was planning on going to the chiropractor tomorrow." So anyway, just wanted to give a short update and I will write more tomorrow. Sorry it's been quiet around here lately. I will try to do better. Night.

So we got the new pastor moved in...

Apparently the alst time I posted I was drunk... or so I have been told. Now keep in mind that is so funny because I have NEVER been drunk in my life. I have medicine to help me get to sleep and I thought it wasn't working, so I got out of bed and decided to blog. Obviously not a good idea!!! I remember part of the first paragraph, but the rest is a blur, well not even a faint memory. I don't remember a thing! I feel inclined to delete it, but obviously it is bringing people quite a few laughs and once the embarrasment is over, then I will go back and read it for myself. Until then, I will just hang my head in shame. lol I should have known better. This is the same medicine that people were cooking and cleaning and driving in their sleep and didn't remember. Now, I took precautions until I saw how it affected me. We got a lock for the pool gate and I did not and still do not know where the key is so that I don't decide to go for a swim during the night and drowned. I also have my keys hidden, etc... but who the heck knew that a computer could cause such problems. Oh well!! Atleast I made someone smile. ;) or laugh hysterically...

Now, back to the pastor. They had a long drive today and we had a greaqt response to welcome them "home". They probably wanted to rest and wished that everyone would get the heck out of their house, but they were very polite and appreciative and did no such thing. Now they seem like a great bunch of folks! I am excited. I think we made the right decision and am looking forward to what God has in store for us and them. they are young, so they should bring a lot of energy to the church. We are ready for awesomeness to take place and Pastor Frank brought us this far, but he is tired and deserves a break. Finally I bet he is resting easy now. He is free! lol Oh and Amy, the new pastors wife, is a CM consultant just like me. I know most people would see it as competition, but I see it as fun. I am so excited to have a new friend- especially a scrapbooking friend! Welcome Pastor Rob and Ms. Amy!

Tomorrow is my sister in law Tracy's birthday. She will be **. Now she doesn't look that, but I don't know that she appreciate me saying how old she is. Anyway, I hope she has a great day!!

I guess that is about it for now. I have a lot of errands to run tomorrow and just a busy week in general. That's ok though, I would rather have that then to sit idle all week. So I guess I will go for now and take my medicinde AND GO TO BED!!! I promise I won't come back to blog.

Oh and to those people that I sent messages to on myspace during my "drunkiness" state. Please forgive me for anything off the wall that I may have said and I am not to be held responsible for any thoughts that may have made themselves known. Now, off to take my meds. Night!

Just taking a moment to talk... well to ramble

I am in a blog challenge and I am suppoosed to be blooging about Remarkable, however I just craweld out of bed trying to do the Ambien thing to help me sleep as I thought I couldn't, but as I sit here I find that my eyes are closing ever so slightly and my fingers feel drunk. lol
If you have ever had the meds they give you before surgery that kind of make you like because you are seeing this awesome euphoric vision/aura or something... lol and pretty much you just laugh becasue everything is funny because the world is spinning and no can see what you are seeing and that is even funnier... oh it's the best. lol OK so that is how I am realizeing that i am feeling now. So, I better not get deep and emotional in my blog challenge ad just ramble instead.

Been to the parsonage a few times to work on it, it looks great! I went back over to the house and used some hardwood floor cleanser and refinisher Saturday night and it looked so much better. I am going back either tomorrow night or WednesDAY to do another coat on it.

Our new pastor will be here Wednesday night and that is very exciting!! I think we are all ready for the new ideas and a resh spirit. We are going to have a moving in service. lol That should be fun. Don't want to miss it.

So... a ball game tonight was rained out and they eventually had to quit. I was freeing up some space on my laptop, as my hair would not have lasted in that humidity.

Oh! So this afternoon Cassi comes home from school and I am on the phone with my crazy mama, and she says," Is it ok if water is coming out the water heater?" Umm, no, ok well it's hot. So we have to go figure out what to do. Finally got it fixed but all the home stores were closed daddy had som gas line and we used that.

I have been burning my photos to disc to free up some space, so finally I have like 10 cds from 2005 and 2006. I have some seniors booking appts, so I am getting the space ready for them. I have no idea if what I am saying is making any sense. So I should probably go, maybe I was sleepy and just a walk around the house was all that was needed. So, if anything happens, I was sitting the laptop down in floor and going to potty and then right back to bed in the guest bed room. So, if I haven't made it to those places in the morning, be sure to alert the authorities.
Ok, Good night sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite nighty night sweet dreams, don't forget to say your prayers and remember I love y'all!! Good night God Bless you and I love you too!

Ahh the beauty

  


A few days ago I talked about the beauty of God's creations. Here is a picture of the sky taken from my seat at the Braves game. Right beside it is the lovely Fly Delta sign and lots of bright lights. I can only imagine how beautiful it would be without all of the distractions. I have a meeting tonight, and I am tired and do not feel like going. I am hurting really bad too. Alas, I made a commitment and therefore I have to keep that promise. Besides last year when Iw as on bed rest and should NOT have gone, I didn't miss a single meeting, so I can at least go now. Cassi has a game tonight, she had one last night, but it was cancelled due to rain. And yet, still no rain at our house! Mama came to visit and it was a wonderful surprise and a special treat. I need to wash clothes and take a bath, but I thought I would drop in and say hi. OH one great thing that happened this week- my batteryt was recalled by Dell for my laptop. That is great news because I need a new battery. At least, I think I need a new battery. Oh well, I really hope it will fix the problem with my battery not charging. Soon it will be here, sooner than later preferably! Have a good night.

I'm stuffed...

After church we went out for pizza. It was delish! I had been dreaming of buffalo chicken thin crust pizza without the chicken... yum!!! It was everything I had dreamth of and more. OK, so now I am overly stuffed and don't ever want to have any of that pizza again. I had no eaten all day waiting for that pizza and of course I over did it on that and cheese bread sticks. It was great though, now if I could just go into labor I would feel a lot of relief. Oh yeah, I'm not pregnant. I guess I really did eat too much... cause I feel like I have an extra body with me right now. Enough about that, so tonight was a great church service. You know when he says, God's talking to someone, I hope you're listening. Well it was me! lol I have been so worried lately just about all kinds of stuff. The same verses kept going through my head each and everyday this week, but they were all reinforced tonight. I guess that person was me. It made me realize that there is absolutely no reason to worry about ANYTHING! God has brought me through so much already and He will continue to bring me through even more. I just have to set back and let Him. He has never failed me and never will. I don't deserve anything i have, but yet God gives it to me anyway. That is just awesome love. The thought that something so magnificant could love me so much that He would send his son to die for my life is even more awesome. God has and continues to be wonderful, there is not a day htat goes by that he doens't show His amazing power. One of my favorite things to do is to take pictures of nature, some of my favorites being sunsets. To look at a sunset and think that there is no God is unimaginable. How can something so beautiful and extravigant just happen? It doesn't. God put it there for us to enjoy. The beauty of His creations are all around us. Did you ever pick up a leaf or a blade of grass and just study it? Something so simple, yet so complex, but even more beautiful because it was created by God. God doens't always give me what I want, well at least not what I think I want... but he ALWAYS gives me what I need. There have been many times that I look back just think to myself, "Oh God, I am so glad that you know what you are doing and have enough since to know that I have no clue what I am talking about and that I am so silly for even thinking that I know what I need. Thank you for for not lsitening to me!" I guess my goal for this week is to let go and let God and to remember that I can't change things, but I can choose not to worry about them. God has not let me down yet and I know that he is not about to begin to start now. I challenge you to do the same this week. In the words of a Disney song, "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..." Have a wonderful week! I know I will!!!!
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Some Post Fruity Pebbles makes it all better

So I finally went to sleep around 3 this morning. I had strict orders to go to bed and stay there from Robert. He like his letter when he found it this morning. He said I need a pregnancy test. Which is hilarious inn itself, but he says that all the time I am hormonal. SO anyway, I went to sleep and woke up a little after 8. I was freezeing to death. I ran through the house trying to make sure everything was in order and that someone had not set the thermostat to Anartica. Unfortunately they had not, it was 75 degrees. So I ran back down stairs, yes I am aware of the no running the house rule, but I was freezing!!, Now back to my story, I climbed into be and grabbed every blanket I could to cover me up including an afghan my sister made. yes, I 'm aware that it is 100 degrees outside, howevver as I have stated previously I am hormonal and I think I really do go through menopause at times. If everyone else is hot, I'm cold, if their cold, I'm dripping sweat. Oh the problems of being me. So I cuddle back down in the covers and stayed there until I got warm. Robbie called me to tell me he made it and now he is on his way back home. My face is swollen and my eyes are black, so I will look real pretty at the foundation meeting tonight. Eyes are dark form levels face is swollen from the sobbing last night. I'm such a freakazoid! So I made my car payment and had me a bowl of fruity pebbels. I finished off the box, which was more than one serving, but you gotta live a little sometimes. By the time I had my car payment made it was getting a little soggy, but crunchy at the same time. Ahhh, just like I like it! It's not my usual cereal of choice, becasue there is about as much nutrition in that box of cereal as in the box that it came in, but everyone deserves a splurge now and then. On that note, does anyone have a milk cow for sale? We need one. I'm lactose intolerant, but obviously the other people in my house are not!!! You would think that we have like 5 kids as much milk as we buy. I guess it's good for them though, but last night we bought 2 gallons. This morning I go to pour just a touch to dampen my cereal and it's over half gone!!! What do these people do with the milk?!?! There was 2 full gallons when I went to bed last night, and when I woke up, there was 1 and a half! It could be worse, it could be some horrible sugar filled carbonated drink, so I won't complain. The funny thing is that they freak out when we are out of milk. Hey, we need some more milk. Already? Well yeah I guess so when you drink a half gallon in one gulp! At least it is skim milk. I am going to call my sister back now, she called while I was freezing. lol Will update later. Love you all bunches!

If there were no more snores..

Ok, so I was going to bed and I did. But then I couldn't sleep. I couldn't even relax or be still. I said my prayers and then tears just started swelling up in my eyes. I don't know why. I am a big cry baby, but usually there is a reason. This time I could not think of one legitimately. Robbie has a big trip tomorrow and I hate that he has to drive that far in one day. I hope and pray he is safe. I thought that might be it, but after I prayed about that specifically I was still crying- maybe even more. I finally had to get out of bed and grab some tissue. I have gone through almost a whole double roll! My mom says sometimes you just need a good cry and maybe that is just the case with this. This have been going on for about 2 hours though. Maybe not quite that long, but a long time. I'm hormonal... I always am. I haven't felt good and I hope this is just all the nasty stuff getting out of my system. No one has hurt my feelings, believe it or not. I am not sad or depressed or upset. I have taken all of my meds, and still nothing. I just felt the need to tell my whole family what I wanted them to know. I could go on more and more, but I just wrote a brief summary to each of them. It is on my hard drive titled, "Love notes to my family", in case of emergency.

I don't want to ever lose them. I wish the world would just come to an end before someone in my family has to die, but I want it to wait until everyone's salvation is satisfied. Last year when I was really sick, I really thought at one time that I was going to die. So did my mom, of course neither of us shared that thought until I was better. I don't feel like that now, but I felt that I should write my family letting them know how much I love them and what they mean to me, just in case. You never know I guess. I don't want to say that I couldn't stand to lose a family member, because I don't want to be tested and I know that God won't put anything on us that we can't handle . So I won't dare say that I can't handle that, because I don't want him to make a believe out of me! I am just saying I don't want to know what it's like to lose anyone else. I am scared of everyone in my family, the future, their salvation, their jobs, just everything. I want the absolute best for everyone and I think they deserve it! I wish I could give them everything they need and want. They all give me so much and have all given up so much for me. I am truly blessed. I have one of the best support systems that was ever invented- my family! I wish that we would do things as a family more and had more together time, because I truly cherish each moment that we have together. I love each and every one of them more than they could ever know.

I wanted to write more in their "letters" but I couldn't. It's hard to think and see past the tears. Tears of joy and tears of sadness. I don't think, well I know I am not as sick as I was last year, though I am not totally better, but I was just thanking God for bringing me so far. I also prayed that I would not have to go through another year like that again and I guess that got me to thinking that what if something happened to me or my family what would I want to tell them. I guess I was relieved to be alive, but yet scared to venture down that road again. One of the things that got me to thinking, is me not being able to sleep. I pick at Robert about not being able to sleep because of his snoring, but as I was lying there and he was starting to snore, it was music to my ears. I was just crushed thinking what if there were no more snores, then that led to what I would miss about each family member. I felt that I needed to put it in writing, but typing is faster. I didn't want to get out of bed though, because I didn't want to lose one moment with one that I love. All that went through my mind was I don't want to miss a thing, from Aerosmith. That song sums up all of my thoughts tonight I suppose.

You know my hormones are all out of whack, well tonight that are doing a good job of it, because I just am blubbering on like a big whale. If someone walked in they would think I was crazy, my face is swollen from the tears and I am surrounded by the tissue. Time for another roll. You know we think about the little idiosyncrasies that get on our nerves about others, yet at the same time if that person were not around for what ever reason, it is probably those very things that we would miss most.

I think all the tears are finally gone for the night. I have 6 minutes until it is a new day and just a few more hours until my husband gets on the road, so I am going to go listen to the music of the snoring Robbie and snuggle up and enjoy the time that God has given me and be blessed that I have ears to listen!

Have a blessed day! To my family and friend- I love you all very very very very very much! If I hae never told you, then know that it is true. Each of your is a special part of me and without you, I would not be complete. Thanks for making me me! Love you bunches and bunches!

Oh and Bubba- why did you not put the Bubbalicious comment on you myspace! I that you ahve to approve them! Then it's not a surprise!

I cannot tell you how much like crap I feel. My head hurts. I need to throw up, but can't !!!My head is pouding and th world is too. People don't mind telling me bad I look, lol so I guess I feel really yucky. I think I feel worse than I sound. Oh well, I am going to bed. Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. We have a founddation meeting at Cassi's school. Maybe Robert will be home in time. Cassi also has a ball game, and I'm not sure which she should attend. She needs to go to the game, but but she needs to deal with school stuff too. oh the decisions. Ok, really going to bed now, will check in tomorrow.

I cannot tell you how much like crap I feel. My head hurts. I need to throw up, but can't !!!My head is pouding and th world is too. People don't mind telling me bad I look, lol so I guess I feel really yucky. I think I feel worse than I sound. Oh well, I am going to bed. Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. We have a founddation meeting at Cassi's school. Maybe Robert will be home in time. Cassi also has a ball game, and I'm not sure which she should attend. She needs to go to the game, but but she needs to deal with school stuff too. oh the decisions. Ok, really going to bed now, will check in tomorrow.