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Prepare yourself for the roller coaster ride of emotions... Be forewarned, this site is my vent site... I cannot be held responsible for what may be said on this blog. Often it's just little tidbits of useless information, but occassionally a wobbler post slips in and all my feelings are revealed. Sometimes they are sweet, sad or cheerful.... but oh when they aren't... well just let me go ahead and apologize now. lol What did you expect?

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Today was NOT my day

but tomorrow is a new day and today will be over and I will have survived. I didn't go to sleep until 5 this morning, then I woke up at 7, finally rolled out of bed around 8 and bebopped down the steps to the great room and well, I can't walk obviously because my foot slipped and I fell and landed on my finger and bottom. (what a run on sentence!!)It hurt. I went to the er around 2 and got shot and 3 scripts. I should be able to sleep tonight because all the bottles say will cause drowsiness. Anyway, I have a busy day tomorrow, as well as Saturday, but really need to clean house most of all and will probably just chill out since the dr said I will hurt worse tomorrow. Thanks for the positive thinking doc.

So I am lying in bed and looking so forward to the chiropractor visit tomorrow. I can't wait!! When I landed today my first thought was, "Well at least I was planning on going to the chiropractor tomorrow." So anyway, just wanted to give a short update and I will write more tomorrow. Sorry it's been quiet around here lately. I will try to do better. Night.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

So we got the new pastor moved in...

Apparently the alst time I posted I was drunk... or so I have been told. Now keep in mind that is so funny because I have NEVER been drunk in my life. I have medicine to help me get to sleep and I thought it wasn't working, so I got out of bed and decided to blog. Obviously not a good idea!!! I remember part of the first paragraph, but the rest is a blur, well not even a faint memory. I don't remember a thing! I feel inclined to delete it, but obviously it is bringing people quite a few laughs and once the embarrasment is over, then I will go back and read it for myself. Until then, I will just hang my head in shame. lol I should have known better. This is the same medicine that people were cooking and cleaning and driving in their sleep and didn't remember. Now, I took precautions until I saw how it affected me. We got a lock for the pool gate and I did not and still do not know where the key is so that I don't decide to go for a swim during the night and drowned. I also have my keys hidden, etc... but who the heck knew that a computer could cause such problems. Oh well!! Atleast I made someone smile. ;) or laugh hysterically...

Now, back to the pastor. They had a long drive today and we had a greaqt response to welcome them "home". They probably wanted to rest and wished that everyone would get the heck out of their house, but they were very polite and appreciative and did no such thing. Now they seem like a great bunch of folks! I am excited. I think we made the right decision and am looking forward to what God has in store for us and them. they are young, so they should bring a lot of energy to the church. We are ready for awesomeness to take place and Pastor Frank brought us this far, but he is tired and deserves a break. Finally I bet he is resting easy now. He is free! lol Oh and Amy, the new pastors wife, is a CM consultant just like me. I know most people would see it as competition, but I see it as fun. I am so excited to have a new friend- especially a scrapbooking friend! Welcome Pastor Rob and Ms. Amy!

Tomorrow is my sister in law Tracy's birthday. She will be **. Now she doesn't look that, but I don't know that she appreciate me saying how old she is. Anyway, I hope she has a great day!!

I guess that is about it for now. I have a lot of errands to run tomorrow and just a busy week in general. That's ok though, I would rather have that then to sit idle all week. So I guess I will go for now and take my medicinde AND GO TO BED!!! I promise I won't come back to blog.

Oh and to those people that I sent messages to on myspace during my "drunkiness" state. Please forgive me for anything off the wall that I may have said and I am not to be held responsible for any thoughts that may have made themselves known. Now, off to take my meds. Night!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Just taking a moment to talk... well to ramble

I am in a blog challenge and I am suppoosed to be blooging about Remarkable, however I just craweld out of bed trying to do the Ambien thing to help me sleep as I thought I couldn't, but as I sit here I find that my eyes are closing ever so slightly and my fingers feel drunk. lol
If you have ever had the meds they give you before surgery that kind of make you like because you are seeing this awesome euphoric vision/aura or something... lol and pretty much you just laugh becasue everything is funny because the world is spinning and no can see what you are seeing and that is even funnier... oh it's the best. lol OK so that is how I am realizeing that i am feeling now. So, I better not get deep and emotional in my blog challenge ad just ramble instead.

Been to the parsonage a few times to work on it, it looks great! I went back over to the house and used some hardwood floor cleanser and refinisher Saturday night and it looked so much better. I am going back either tomorrow night or WednesDAY to do another coat on it.

Our new pastor will be here Wednesday night and that is very exciting!! I think we are all ready for the new ideas and a resh spirit. We are going to have a moving in service. lol That should be fun. Don't want to miss it.

So... a ball game tonight was rained out and they eventually had to quit. I was freeing up some space on my laptop, as my hair would not have lasted in that humidity.

Oh! So this afternoon Cassi comes home from school and I am on the phone with my crazy mama, and she says," Is it ok if water is coming out the water heater?" Umm, no, ok well it's hot. So we have to go figure out what to do. Finally got it fixed but all the home stores were closed daddy had som gas line and we used that.

I have been burning my photos to disc to free up some space, so finally I have like 10 cds from 2005 and 2006. I have some seniors booking appts, so I am getting the space ready for them. I have no idea if what I am saying is making any sense. So I should probably go, maybe I was sleepy and just a walk around the house was all that was needed. So, if anything happens, I was sitting the laptop down in floor and going to potty and then right back to bed in the guest bed room. So, if I haven't made it to those places in the morning, be sure to alert the authorities.
Ok, Good night sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite nighty night sweet dreams, don't forget to say your prayers and remember I love y'all!! Good night God Bless you and I love you too!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Ahh the beauty


A few days ago I talked about the beauty of God's creations. Here is a picture of the sky taken from my seat at the Braves game. Right beside it is the lovely Fly Delta sign and lots of bright lights. I can only imagine how beautiful it would be without all of the distractions. I have a meeting tonight, and I am tired and do not feel like going. I am hurting really bad too. Alas, I made a commitment and therefore I have to keep that promise. Besides last year when Iw as on bed rest and should NOT have gone, I didn't miss a single meeting, so I can at least go now. Cassi has a game tonight, she had one last night, but it was cancelled due to rain. And yet, still no rain at our house! Mama came to visit and it was a wonderful surprise and a special treat. I need to wash clothes and take a bath, but I thought I would drop in and say hi. OH one great thing that happened this week- my batteryt was recalled by Dell for my laptop. That is great news because I need a new battery. At least, I think I need a new battery. Oh well, I really hope it will fix the problem with my battery not charging. Soon it will be here, sooner than later preferably! Have a good night.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

I'm stuffed...

After church we went out for pizza. It was delish! I had been dreaming of buffalo chicken thin crust pizza without the chicken... yum!!! It was everything I had dreamth of and more. OK, so now I am overly stuffed and don't ever want to have any of that pizza again. I had no eaten all day waiting for that pizza and of course I over did it on that and cheese bread sticks. It was great though, now if I could just go into labor I would feel a lot of relief. Oh yeah, I'm not pregnant. I guess I really did eat too much... cause I feel like I have an extra body with me right now. Enough about that, so tonight was a great church service. You know when he says, God's talking to someone, I hope you're listening. Well it was me! lol I have been so worried lately just about all kinds of stuff. The same verses kept going through my head each and everyday this week, but they were all reinforced tonight. I guess that person was me. It made me realize that there is absolutely no reason to worry about ANYTHING! God has brought me through so much already and He will continue to bring me through even more. I just have to set back and let Him. He has never failed me and never will. I don't deserve anything i have, but yet God gives it to me anyway. That is just awesome love. The thought that something so magnificant could love me so much that He would send his son to die for my life is even more awesome. God has and continues to be wonderful, there is not a day htat goes by that he doens't show His amazing power. One of my favorite things to do is to take pictures of nature, some of my favorites being sunsets. To look at a sunset and think that there is no God is unimaginable. How can something so beautiful and extravigant just happen? It doesn't. God put it there for us to enjoy. The beauty of His creations are all around us. Did you ever pick up a leaf or a blade of grass and just study it? Something so simple, yet so complex, but even more beautiful because it was created by God. God doens't always give me what I want, well at least not what I think I want... but he ALWAYS gives me what I need. There have been many times that I look back just think to myself, "Oh God, I am so glad that you know what you are doing and have enough since to know that I have no clue what I am talking about and that I am so silly for even thinking that I know what I need. Thank you for for not lsitening to me!" I guess my goal for this week is to let go and let God and to remember that I can't change things, but I can choose not to worry about them. God has not let me down yet and I know that he is not about to begin to start now. I challenge you to do the same this week. In the words of a Disney song, "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..." Have a wonderful week! I know I will!!!!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Some Post Fruity Pebbles makes it all better

So I finally went to sleep around 3 this morning. I had strict orders to go to bed and stay there from Robert. He like his letter when he found it this morning. He said I need a pregnancy test. Which is hilarious inn itself, but he says that all the time I am hormonal. SO anyway, I went to sleep and woke up a little after 8. I was freezeing to death. I ran through the house trying to make sure everything was in order and that someone had not set the thermostat to Anartica. Unfortunately they had not, it was 75 degrees. So I ran back down stairs, yes I am aware of the no running the house rule, but I was freezing!!, Now back to my story, I climbed into be and grabbed every blanket I could to cover me up including an afghan my sister made. yes, I 'm aware that it is 100 degrees outside, howevver as I have stated previously I am hormonal and I think I really do go through menopause at times. If everyone else is hot, I'm cold, if their cold, I'm dripping sweat. Oh the problems of being me. So I cuddle back down in the covers and stayed there until I got warm. Robbie called me to tell me he made it and now he is on his way back home. My face is swollen and my eyes are black, so I will look real pretty at the foundation meeting tonight. Eyes are dark form levels face is swollen from the sobbing last night. I'm such a freakazoid! So I made my car payment and had me a bowl of fruity pebbels. I finished off the box, which was more than one serving, but you gotta live a little sometimes. By the time I had my car payment made it was getting a little soggy, but crunchy at the same time. Ahhh, just like I like it! It's not my usual cereal of choice, becasue there is about as much nutrition in that box of cereal as in the box that it came in, but everyone deserves a splurge now and then. On that note, does anyone have a milk cow for sale? We need one. I'm lactose intolerant, but obviously the other people in my house are not!!! You would think that we have like 5 kids as much milk as we buy. I guess it's good for them though, but last night we bought 2 gallons. This morning I go to pour just a touch to dampen my cereal and it's over half gone!!! What do these people do with the milk?!?! There was 2 full gallons when I went to bed last night, and when I woke up, there was 1 and a half! It could be worse, it could be some horrible sugar filled carbonated drink, so I won't complain. The funny thing is that they freak out when we are out of milk. Hey, we need some more milk. Already? Well yeah I guess so when you drink a half gallon in one gulp! At least it is skim milk. I am going to call my sister back now, she called while I was freezing. lol Will update later. Love you all bunches!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

If there were no more snores..

Ok, so I was going to bed and I did. But then I couldn't sleep. I couldn't even relax or be still. I said my prayers and then tears just started swelling up in my eyes. I don't know why. I am a big cry baby, but usually there is a reason. This time I could not think of one legitimately. Robbie has a big trip tomorrow and I hate that he has to drive that far in one day. I hope and pray he is safe. I thought that might be it, but after I prayed about that specifically I was still crying- maybe even more. I finally had to get out of bed and grab some tissue. I have gone through almost a whole double roll! My mom says sometimes you just need a good cry and maybe that is just the case with this. This have been going on for about 2 hours though. Maybe not quite that long, but a long time. I'm hormonal... I always am. I haven't felt good and I hope this is just all the nasty stuff getting out of my system. No one has hurt my feelings, believe it or not. I am not sad or depressed or upset. I have taken all of my meds, and still nothing. I just felt the need to tell my whole family what I wanted them to know. I could go on more and more, but I just wrote a brief summary to each of them. It is on my hard drive titled, "Love notes to my family", in case of emergency.

I don't want to ever lose them. I wish the world would just come to an end before someone in my family has to die, but I want it to wait until everyone's salvation is satisfied. Last year when I was really sick, I really thought at one time that I was going to die. So did my mom, of course neither of us shared that thought until I was better. I don't feel like that now, but I felt that I should write my family letting them know how much I love them and what they mean to me, just in case. You never know I guess. I don't want to say that I couldn't stand to lose a family member, because I don't want to be tested and I know that God won't put anything on us that we can't handle . So I won't dare say that I can't handle that, because I don't want him to make a believe out of me! I am just saying I don't want to know what it's like to lose anyone else. I am scared of everyone in my family, the future, their salvation, their jobs, just everything. I want the absolute best for everyone and I think they deserve it! I wish I could give them everything they need and want. They all give me so much and have all given up so much for me. I am truly blessed. I have one of the best support systems that was ever invented- my family! I wish that we would do things as a family more and had more together time, because I truly cherish each moment that we have together. I love each and every one of them more than they could ever know.

I wanted to write more in their "letters" but I couldn't. It's hard to think and see past the tears. Tears of joy and tears of sadness. I don't think, well I know I am not as sick as I was last year, though I am not totally better, but I was just thanking God for bringing me so far. I also prayed that I would not have to go through another year like that again and I guess that got me to thinking that what if something happened to me or my family what would I want to tell them. I guess I was relieved to be alive, but yet scared to venture down that road again. One of the things that got me to thinking, is me not being able to sleep. I pick at Robert about not being able to sleep because of his snoring, but as I was lying there and he was starting to snore, it was music to my ears. I was just crushed thinking what if there were no more snores, then that led to what I would miss about each family member. I felt that I needed to put it in writing, but typing is faster. I didn't want to get out of bed though, because I didn't want to lose one moment with one that I love. All that went through my mind was I don't want to miss a thing, from Aerosmith. That song sums up all of my thoughts tonight I suppose.

You know my hormones are all out of whack, well tonight that are doing a good job of it, because I just am blubbering on like a big whale. If someone walked in they would think I was crazy, my face is swollen from the tears and I am surrounded by the tissue. Time for another roll. You know we think about the little idiosyncrasies that get on our nerves about others, yet at the same time if that person were not around for what ever reason, it is probably those very things that we would miss most.

I think all the tears are finally gone for the night. I have 6 minutes until it is a new day and just a few more hours until my husband gets on the road, so I am going to go listen to the music of the snoring Robbie and snuggle up and enjoy the time that God has given me and be blessed that I have ears to listen!

Have a blessed day! To my family and friend- I love you all very very very very very much! If I hae never told you, then know that it is true. Each of your is a special part of me and without you, I would not be complete. Thanks for making me me! Love you bunches and bunches!

Oh and Bubba- why did you not put the Bubbalicious comment on you myspace! I that you ahve to approve them! Then it's not a surprise!
I cannot tell you how much like crap I feel. My head hurts. I need to throw up, but can't !!!My head is pouding and th world is too. People don't mind telling me bad I look, lol so I guess I feel really yucky. I think I feel worse than I sound. Oh well, I am going to bed. Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. We have a founddation meeting at Cassi's school. Maybe Robert will be home in time. Cassi also has a ball game, and I'm not sure which she should attend. She needs to go to the game, but but she needs to deal with school stuff too. oh the decisions. Ok, really going to bed now, will check in tomorrow.
I cannot tell you how much like crap I feel. My head hurts. I need to throw up, but can't !!!My head is pouding and th world is too. People don't mind telling me bad I look, lol so I guess I feel really yucky. I think I feel worse than I sound. Oh well, I am going to bed. Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. We have a founddation meeting at Cassi's school. Maybe Robert will be home in time. Cassi also has a ball game, and I'm not sure which she should attend. She needs to go to the game, but but she needs to deal with school stuff too. oh the decisions. Ok, really going to bed now, will check in tomorrow.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Time to whine

I am starving! I am tired! I want to swim! I want to sleep! I need to contac the insurance companies and lawyers about our claims from a) the accident while in Boone, NC b) the fall at the mall and c) the county truck that cracked my windshield.
I need to get all the recalls updated on my truck as well as get my warranty papers so I can have all the maintence done so it won't turn into a hunk of junk. All of this needs to be done, but for now, I am going to dinner! Prepared by my husband!
All the shopping is over! I am really tired and still can't rest well at night. Then it is all I can do to stay awake during the day. Everyone had a great first day of school. I am so glad! They all seem to be comfortable with their teachers, so that is a relief. Courtney got a new kitty and named it Abby or Abbie. (not sure which way she smells it) Brook and Bree lost their turtle, they put up flyers. lol
Cassi had a flat tire on her way home from school, but conveniently it was at a diesal shop and Mr.Jack was able to take it into town and get it fixed for her. She said it was going to be a great year. She had Charlie, 4 times and she loved him so that was a good thing. She knew him from church, but it psyched that she liked him as a teacher... especially since she has him so much. I have a Jr. Service League meeting tomorrow night. I am so tired, I don't want to go. lol I know it is over 24 hours away, but still. I think my levels still aren't up. I have my appointment to follow up with my blood specialist this month. I have looked and felt a little flushed this past week and so I need to talk to both drs about increasing my meds. Oh well, Robbie just got off work and is cooking dinner. Casey is helping him. She turned 16 yesterday. She called to see if she could spend the night with us tonight, so we are excited to have her over. I guess I better go now, we need to go to Cassi and Bubba's game. We were out of town for the last one, so we need to make it to this one for sure. Have a great night!

Friday, August 04, 2006

Now time to recover

Well we just made it home and at dinner. After shopping we picked up Courtney and she is staying the night. We went to Mamacille's for JUICY watermelon. Courtney loved it, I did too and neither one of us are watermelon fans. Cassi loved it but she loves watermelon. Anyway, we all loved the enchiladas that Robbie made us for dinner. Even Courtney!!! She asked for the recipe! lol Anyway, I am going to try and get some sleep. Nighty night!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

It's late. I'm tired. Been sleeping a lot lately taking Ambien, well a lot for me anyway. I didn't take it last night because I was taking Casey school clothe sshopping, so now I am tired tired tired. Not going to take it tonight since I have to do the same thing with Cassi tomorrow. I don't wake up at a normal time and when I do wake up at a normal time, I am GROGGY!!! SO, I am tired, and over stuffed. Should have stopped with half of my turkey sandwich, but nooooo I had to eat the whole thing PLUS chili cheese ranch tots. School starts Monday. My little sister will be 16 on Sunday!!! Ok, going to brush my teeth now and going to bed! Hopefully I can go to sleep at a semi-decent hour!!! Night!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Well I have been taking Ambien for the past few days and I can't wake up!!! So yesterday I woke up around 11, then this morning I got up at 6 and paid a few bills, I think, I was still half asleep. I woke Cass around 7 and asked her to run the things to town before 9. Then I crashed again. Woke up at 1:00!!! I can't take it! I'm supposed to take Casey shopping tomorrow. She will be 16 on Sunday, so we are having a sister day. I think I better not take my Ambien tonight, if I want to be able to function. Last night we worked on the parsonage, painting it. We have a lot to do by the time Rob and Amy get here. Monday night, Cassi and I went to Uncle Ervin's and Aunt Nancy's. We stopped by flat rock to take some photos and then ended up at the garden shed, old barn and the corn field. The pics turned out great. Almost as good as the delicious dinner that we had waiting for us. We have fried okra, squash, asparagus, cucumbers, tomatoes, cantaloupe, roast, potatoes, carrots and green beans, oh and biscuit! Everything was DELICIOUS!!! It was so good to see them and be able to visit for a while. Ed and Melissa came over as well and Miss Erin was at home too. It was a nice treat. We have to visit more often. Anyway, here are some pics from our excursion.